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When I die I want my body to be turned to ash and thrown to the wind to be carried off to where ever it wants to take me. None of this bullshit coffin and throwing you into a cold dark grave. Especially when the ground is too fucking frozen to even dig a hole forcing the body to be stored until things thaw out. I can't believe that shit.

I feel bad for Free and her brothers but at least she has a lot of other family to help her through. I feel bad for my ma. She's lost another man. I would have stayed with her longer but she told me and Angel to go back to school. I don't really know what she plans on doing now although she did mention something about getting her old job back.

Fuck. I need a smoke and a bed and while we're at it a new life. I'm ready for new one please because this one really sucks.

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Mitaartut was crazy last night. Even overstaffed, Zouk! still was insane. People got completely snockered. At least I didn't have to manage the loo's last night. That would have been a nasty job.

So did everyone have a good time?

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Missed my first class this morning which probably isn't a good thing since I've been put on academic probation. Exams didn't go so well this time around. Better luck next time, right?

Oh, that reminds me. I need to sign up for a mentor/tutor person. Any suggestions on a smart 6th or 7th year who wants to try and shape me up? My only requirements are short skirts, pouty lips and a passion for helping a lad out with All his needs.

Anyways, back to my story. I would have slept on through the next class had Ma not called. It wasn't a good call either. I guess Free's dad went back to the hospital yesterday (which explains why Free was missing last night) and apparently complications got worse and he went. Ma is in awful shape. Angel and I need to take off tomorrow and go help take care of her and anything Free and her brother's need. Funeral's on Monday so I guess we'll be back after that.

This new year is not starting off well at all.

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NYE 2010 - Bring a friend

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Angel and I went to the Brite's for Christmas. Free's dad doesn't look so good but at least he's out of the hospital. Ma pretty much waited on him hand and foot while the rest of us lazed about. They've got servants to cook and clean for us so we just had to entertain ourselves. Which we did pretty well. Christmas is really a blur. I'm not sure how much of it I was really conscious for.

Ma had me and Angel go over to our house today and box up anything we wanted to keep. She's putting the house on the market after the holidays and needs it cleared out. There wasn't much I wanted to save. Not of my stuff anyways. I took Dad's pint cup and a picture of him and Ma and the one picture of the four of us when Angel could still see.

Angel boxed up all his old braile books. Says we should donate them to a school. I guess the rest of this crap doesn't matter. Which gives me an idea.

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Anybody want to come to Dublin for New Years Eve?

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And the world just keeps getting crazier.

I still can hardly believe what I saw. If they had not said his name...It just didn't look like Jason. The body was so thin and broken looking. At first I thought someone offed themselves but now it's obvious someone used Jason as some sort of morbid message. Who the fuck would do that? What the hell is going on around here? There are some nasty fucked up people out there.

And now the school thinks we are safe by locking us up. Of course, they aren't doing it for our safety. It's just so they can have a big meeting and scratch their heads about what they need to do. More kids will go home probably. Pretty soon, Idris is going to be out of business, or at least cut back hardcore to where some of the professors will have to be let go.

It seems the bad just keeps coming.

On the bright side, Ma seems happy. She sent a letter and two fat envelopes of cash for me and Angel. Says I don't need to send her anything anymore and now it's her turn to give back. I know where the money's coming from even though she hasn't come out and said so. It's from Mr. Brite. Ma has latched on to him good now. She even mentioned selling the house so I guess they've started shagging. I don't know what she expects me to think. Actually, I'm not sure what I think. The Brite's are good people. Freedom is a sweetheart...but it feels like Dad is being forgotten.

I can't take this man's money. I'm just going to tell Angel it's all his. I can do for myself. I always have.
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The roof is still technically the dormitory, right? I'm going up for a smoke.

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What do you do with a person who drives you insane, who hates your guts and causes you nothing but misery and then turns around and saves your ass for no reason? And no, they are not related to me. It makes absolutely no sense to me. The girl is completely mental.

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What a weekend. I may have missed the show but the club sure was buzzing with news of it. That Amelia, she has quite a zap. But I'm sure Sully already knew that. Too bad his hot head set her off. He should have known better. Some people just don't know how to disagree properly.

And why is there never a light mage around when you need one?

Does anyone know if seahorse tastes anything like shrimp? I'm really curious.

I totally overslept this morning and completely missed Math class. I feel like I have been dragging all day. But I assure you all that I am still up for my little race tonight. Zu and I have been exercising her wings for the past few nights. She is definitely ready to show off her dynamic speed and agility.

Don't forget to wear Green tonight! And thanks for your support.

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Once again, I call out to the ladies of Idris. I need four to six of you to help me with my talent. Specifically those with a natural grace and beauty. Please reply if interested.

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Since the talent show is next weekend, let's go home this weekend. Ma won't mind the change.

Also, how'd it go with Lina?

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Good time wanted. Ladies only. Please contact Oliver asap. This is an emergency!

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Looks like the house needs a new roof. How to get the money in such a short time is beyond me. I'll have to go home one of these weekends and try to patch things up as best I can until I can manage to earn enough. I swear, if it isn't one thing it is another.

It also seems that Angel has decided to tell his friends that I'm pretty much a piece of shit that they need to be careful of. Makes me wonder what the fuck I'm doing any of this for. Why do I stick around at all? I think I might be starting to hate him. That is when I'm not hating myself.

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This weekend has been smashing so far. Earned over $200 towards the improvement fund. Mum's so proud that I've managed to amount to something.

To those ladies who didn't get a chance to experience a true moment of rapture with me, or to those who didn't get enough, I'd be happy to take you on a personal adventure. Leave your comments and I'll get back to you.

And to Sir Alec ~ I hear tales of you acquiring a new dragon. Is this true? And if so, would you be interested in taking it for a little spin? Against me and Zu, of course. Wagers anyone?

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